I'm not afraid anymore (because you're gone)

Since you were gone

I never again was afraid

Since you were gone

I never again felt in place

Any rejection, I'm ready to face

Because I know now that anything

can be fixed unless is gone

like you are gone

Afraid of contact, never again

Feel no pleasure, feel no pain

Not a thing I think I'll love

'cos love I think is fear of losing

Since you were gone

I never again was afraid

Since you were gone

I never again felt in place

I feel courageous, I feel free

Because I know I can be me

And no matter what people see

Reactions won't bother me

I lost you for the eternity

eternity that I now feel

And everything I try to be

I am, because I don't care if I'm not

Since you were gone

I never again was afraid

Since you were gone

I never again felt in place

Anything that I did towards you, was super calculated. Because, no matter what, I never wanted to lose your friendship, in first place. Despite being away and separated for so many periods of ours lives, you were always there, in the corner of my head, like a safe place that I could always go. You were always there. But then, one day, you were not.

About Last Night [14]

Today you came to visit.

I was riding my bike near your home, and I saw you.

I knew it was you because you had some weird tattoos (that I had never seen) in your chest.

You hair was black with some blood-red flocks.

When you saw me, you became visibly uncomfortable.

You said the pressure bothered you, since you were back from your death.

You said you didn't necessarily wanted to love me.

I told you we never did properly loved each other, and we had always been friends.

You said you had schizophrenia.

I said OK.