(In chronological order, as I remember)
1996
- Lack of friends in childhood
1997~1999
- Sexual abuse in childhood
- Bully in a time when bully wasn't considered a problem
2000
- Lack of male role model in pre-adolescence
2001
- Lack of religion
2002
- Shyness[1]
2003
- (*) Rejection from fisrt love
2004
- Platonic love[1]
- Cheating the first passion with the first love
2005
- Platonic love[2]
- Cheating the second passion with the first love
2006
- Passivity[1]
- Lack of guilt
- Lack of limits
2007
- Shyness[2]
2008
- Platonic love[3]
2009
- Cheating the third passion with the first love
- Passivity[2]
2010
- Turning friends into lovers, and losing those friends
2011
- Messing with lovers when, at last, I assume my feelings for that very first love (this time without cheating)
- Eternal waiting for first love (now dead)
- Lost my face
- Lost my dignity
- Lost my look
- Lost my identity
- Lost my moral
- Accumulated guilt
- Constant wish to die (since *)
TEAR DOWN THE WALL!
[before the nicotine stains my fingers]